Obviously I am going to be great at this blogging thing (sarcasm).  Eventually I'll post daily including what I ate but one step at a time.  I am down about 2-3 pounds from the start of personal training.  I have gone walking a couple of times with my husband in the past week.  Basically I have been physically active 4 days in a 7 day period.  This is a lot compared to none.  I had to cancel my training session yesterday to not feeling the best but rescheduled to today.  I did more reps and I am at 8 lb dumbbells (I only used 5 lbs last week).  I am feeling more muscle which is a great thing.  The hardest thing is fighting not giving up and being patient with myself.  I am very clumsy and shake a lot while exercising because my body is in shock.  I did notice my body did not shake after getting off the elliptical and I am moving faster on it.  I think the key is to hold on to these little improvements like they are one of the most precious memories.  My trainer says I am doing great (I really like the positive reinforcement).  I become discouraged very easily and want to see the weight melt off....that isn't happening.  I also need to be realistic.  I out of all honesty want to lose 50 pounds in a week (seriously I really do).  In my fantasy world I will be down by 120 pounds by the end of summer....in time to by some clearance 2 piece bathing suit and be able to use it until Fall.  As I come back from my fantasy world I am reminded that losing weight takes time!  The slower you lose it the longer you keep it off.  I think this beginning part is just developing healthy habits.  Eating more natural foods, getting in the routine of exercising, getting quality sleep and developing a more positive mindset.  I am being refined right now.  This journey is not only refining me outwardly but I will have better character after this battle become more like second nature.