Trial and Error

SO I haven't blogged in a while.  I felt like I didn't have anything to say (I know it's hard to believe).  I have since come to the conclusion I don't care if I repeat myself it is part of this battle I am facing.  I today do have a "new" battle.  I wouldn't call it new as this has been a health problem since the beginning.  I don't want to go into too much detail but I suffer from what is believed to be IBS which causes many problems with trying to get healthy.  This week we went grocery shopping at Trader Joes while we were hungry.  Usually a big mistake but for us it was just kept throwing healthy items like fruits and veggies in the buggy.  I was so excited to be able to have some healthy snacks like carrots and hummus, dried fruits (no sugar added).  Well started eating the raw carrots with hummus and of course it was quite yummy.  My body on the other hand is not impressed.  In fact it got quite angry with me consuming them.  ****WARNING HERE'S WHERE I GO ON A TANGENT**** Oh and I know that carrots contain sugar...blah....blah...blah; they are also very nutritional and when I have dieted (currently I am not dieting I am eating healthy- there is a difference) in the past I ate carrots and lost weight.  I also know that they body burns sugars from fruits and vegetables differently than refined sugar. Anyways back on topic my body has punished me the past few days for eating these little orange things.  Let's just say with lots of abdominal pain and everything that goes with it.  Carrots are supposed to be a "safe" food for those with IBS, I would be the exception to this rule.  I do fine eating them steamed so I guess that means I have to eat them steamed.  It's just a shame because raw veggies are healthier than steamed and I LOVE raw veggies my body again not so much.  I know people who hate raw veggies (my husband included) but can eat them without a problem.  I am not finding that very fair.  Oh well....now to see if my body can handle raw cucumbers, zucchinis and squash.  Need to buy some of these things, squash I do have.  All I can do is try it and see how my body reacts.  I just know that I cannot give up.  I have done this before.  If my body react this way towards health foods then why bother, right?  WRONG there are so many options out there and there are no excuses it is very discouraging I'll give myself that.  I can't let this get me down.  This is a true battle for me but last week I did a 45 second plank, and can do high kicks two fitness improvements.  I am not going to back track I have worked too hard AND have shown much improvement that I cannot just give up on eating right.  My mom has referred to me as "The Food Nazi" I am wearing this title proudly because it means to me that I have gained self control that I thought I did not have.  We were given a treadmill so this will help us to get in cardio on our off days.  Of course I need to make room for which is what I was working on until I get on here :-)  (I need a break). We are going on a cruise in a couple of months which is exciting.  We plan on not letting go of what we have been working on.  They have a gym and this we will use daily.  We do not plan in overindulging in foods like I hear happens on a cruise. I do know that no matter what I am not giving up!